Something New…

Dear hearts,

The time has come for me to reveal to you who I am… on YouTube.

This is a first for me, so please be gentle… or don’t. I can handle it.

Most of you prefer to listen or watch something instead of read. Allow me to give you a K.I.S.S. (keep it silly simple), and grant your wish.

I would love for you to subscribe to my channel.

Meanwhile, this little thing is not ending. Posts will continue to be written, for those who like to read my words of poetry, about football + Scotch Whisky.

Cheers,

x|o FF

WRONG

Twisting and turning
Your feelings are burning
You’re breaking the girl
(She meant you no harm) / Red Hot Chili Peppers 

Dear hearts, I’ve really held my tongue debating if I should write what I’m about to write. Thanks to the not-so-fine-non-gentleman @Uber, I strongly feel I must.

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As a woman who has worked in male-dominated industries my entire professional career, which include finance, football and high-tech, you wouldn’t assume or guess it upon first looking at me. I dress and look very feminine, hence why I chose the name of this blog to reflect my style, writing about the two things I adore, football and scotch whisky.

I prefer skirts and dresses and 3-4″ heels on a daily basis. I do not feel comfortable in dress pants or flats. I’m also already tall, which can add a factor of unfortunate intimidation in some cases.

I’ve learned how to put people at ease, since I do not fit into a box of what they feel I should-be, since this is who I am.

Why am I explaining this? I have been the only woman at countless meetings, dinners, and events. I’ve hardly thought twice about it. I have not wanted to be treated any differently than the men around me. I worked hard for my respective positions, and my perception is, there is no difference between us.

We are witnessing social injustice toward women across football programs and Silicon Valley companies, and I feel I need to stand up and say something on behalf of my gender, and as a woman who has been employed in both sectors.

Be warned, I’m about to channel my inner 90’s Courtney Love. 

First, I see a coward in Travis Kalanik CEO of Uber, who finds NOW is the time he needs to make changes, including gathering all the female engineers within his organization to share with them, he can sympathize.

I nearly threw up.

Hey Trav, do you know what it’s like to have a man unexpectedly reach up your skirt and feel you up or slap your a**?

Hey Trav, do you know what it’s like to get stared down like a piece of meat from an co-worker you want NO part of, and are terrified to walk to your car parked in the underground garage when you wrap up your work at 9 PM?

Trav I’m sure you know what it’s like to report said employee to HR, only for them to look you up and down and say, well you are an attractive woman., and this is only his first offense. 

Maybe you know exactly what it’s like to work your a** off and be told, we appreciate your efforts but that guy over there, who isn’t nearly as qualified as you are honey, feel he’s a better fit. Later to discover he has a family, that’s why he’s a better fit. 

Travis you definitely know what it’s like to have a baby and return from maternity leave only to find your position suddenly no longer necessary, or told if you have kids, climbing back to your position will be nearly impossible.  

Travis I’m sure you can sympathize what it feels like to be a woman… mti5mdaymjixndm3mji5ntm0

Next, The University of Oklahoma, including and not limited to HC Bob Stoops (whom I strongly believe should still be fired for allowing that running back on his team receive a slap on the wrist for breaking a woman), is also part of this problem.

One NFL GM and team will believe they can change, what they view as a little misfortune, and make him into a good-guy. I’m suppressing one hell of a laugh. Gents, habits are not formed overnight. You think this is a one-time incident? Think again.

Lastly, Baylor… is just warming up. It’s officially Wa-Co for women in Waco, including of all people within their athletic department, this female non-leader, women’s basketball HC, Kim Mulkey and her comments last week.

Come on Kim, I thought these things were done with no tears? Isn’t that the game played, or what you tell your players?

Let me be absolutely clear here, I love and adore men. I am not a I’m-a-woman-here-me-roar-type. I do not believe one gender is superior to the other. WE need each OTHER.

I have had the privilege to work with astounding, humble and talented people. I’ve also worked with arrogant, egomaniacal people who believe the world and everyone in it owes them something. That’s just life.

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I (speaking for myself) do not want to be treated any differently than my male-counterparts. All I ask is for the same opportunities as them.

As Diane von Furstenberg said in her remarks, the night her exhibit Journey of a Dress opened at LACMA, I’ve always wanted to live a man’s world in a woman’s body. 

I want to emphasize here dear hearts, I’m not looking to be right. I want us to get it right. These are issues the president of our country has been accused of committing, which makes my stomach sink.

We are failing here and it’s shameful.

Let’s make a change and stand up for others, while rocking out to Hole’s Live Through This, as we live through this.

Cheers,

x|o FFF

REBEL, REBEL

You love bands when they’re playing hard / You want more and you want it fast – David Bowie, RIP

I believe I’m one who will take the good times with the bad times. One of those ride or die women. Then I attended a Raiders game.

They were playing the Jets. Of course I had to be there. I wore my Jets had proudly walking in. They were there to play. I was there to support. It was only proper. It’s a semi-gangster moment to say I walked into the coli wearing my Jets hat with no shame.

Okay you caught me… my hat is black… and I was in black / gray attire, so you can tell I know how to handle myself when presented with a situation like this. My friends, who are fans and non-fans, counseled me to dress like them. Blend in. Don’t let them see who you’re really cheering for.

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After placing my head in my hands many times, and viewing the game through my fingers, at the disaster that played out before me (which is the usual for us fans of Gang Green), I decided to change my POV.

I’m a my-whiskey-glass-is-half-full kind of woman.

First, the view from my seat felt like the field was right below me. Not 100 yards away like at MetLife. I was enjoying the club level, much like I also do back in NYC. I felt like I was actually watching the game at the stadium, not on my TV.

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Second, after a few teasing words from the gents around me, they realized I could speak the ball of foot language, had massive respect for the great Bo Jackson (my all-time fave player), Howie Long, Coach Madden and one amazing woman, Amy Trask, they offered to buy me a few drinks. We sat back to watch their enjoyment, and my sadness.

I began to really like Raider Nation. Raider Nation embraced me. By the end of the game I was infatuated.

I decided to ask those around me how much their seats are. When they told me I first had to erase my look of shock and instant response, ‘pro season tickets less than USC football?!’ then I said, ‘okay and for your PSL?’ They looked at me like I was saying a naughty word, or hinting at a new STD.

‘PSL? We don’t have PSLs here.’ I was loving this place and team even more.

The next day I called their ticket office. I wanted a piece of the Coliseum. Unfortunately they didn’t have a place for me in 213… but months later they did in 214.

This is how the Raiders became the object of my affection last season dear hearts.

Raiders love is some love. As I took it all in, which felt more like a college game vs pro, and the community around me, add that view I had from section 213 I thought ‘THIS is one of the best NFL stadiums I have ever sat in.’

I’ve visited eight others. The femme football tour will continue this season. It’s not stopping until I’m six feet under.

I love the stories of grandmothers sitting in the stands next to the Black Panthers and Hells Angels. It demonstrates how deep the support of this team runs, how badass the team, the people and fan base are. I’ve not even touched on NWA and the way they made the Black & Silver get noticed and part of their brand.644815803

Being a Raider means you’re a rebel. You’re not like the rest. You standup for injustice. You stand for what you believe in. You found those who get you, and you’re family. Once a Raider, always a Raider.

This is the same team with a former owner who was a raider in his own right, robbing two cities with relocation, who hired minorities, including a Hispanic Head Coach, and a woman to run his front office. He may have grown a little senile as his age increased. I won’t gloss over that detail, he was a pioneer, and a rebel.

The list of well-known players from the 70’s and 80’s and how impressive Derek Carr played this season could take up another post, so I’ll stop here.

Thank you Oakland. Hopefully you will stay.

Cheers,

x|o FFF

GET IT

A little topic is receiving a lot of fingering and tweet-service via Twitter today: young writers, unpaid internships and going after what you want. Let me share with you a little secret:

PUT YOURSELF OUT THERE DEAR HEARTS

I’m a believer in a little tough love. We know deep inside it’s the best kind.

football-closeupIwanted to work for my college’s football team. I wanted to be in charge of decisions and be respected. I didn’t know what role that would be in college. I knew the position I wanted to hold for pro team. Amy Trask, former Raiders CEO held a beacon of light, that if she could do it, I could do it too.

I began working as an intern for my mentor, Mr Hendrix and no is first name is not Jimi, in the athletics department. He was a former four-year starting point guard for our alma mater, leading our team to the Sweet 16 decades ago. At 5’10” he was not built to play in the NBA. He instead played six seasons as a corner in the NFL. He never played a down of football outside of high school. As he told me once, he didn’t like the feeling of being hit. One of those teams he played for, the Dallas Cowboys during their prime.

When I walked into his office I had no clue who he is. The accomplishments he displayed, his two degrees prominently  placed on top of a cabinet and several photos of his family surround his desk. Modesty is a virtue.

He gave me good advice, and the realities of playing in the NFL.

See, I was raised in a house where football wasn’t turned on every Saturday or Sunday. No my father wasn’t an armchair QB. I had to pull a QB sneak to peek at games.

Football is revered in my small-town community. A national football power at the time, was only 45 minutes away. Football brought people in my community together. The game fascinated me, and so my obsession began.

img_4295While interning unpaid for Mr Hendrix, I worked 1-2 additional jobs to pay my rent and expenses. I was a first generation college grad. A small-town girl who was feeling her away around a system that was savage. Read: it wasn’t easy.

Beverly Hillbilly’s exist. I’m living proof.

I was promoted to work for my college football team, as the Assistant Director of Football Operations for 4 seasons following my internship. I was paid, but if I told you what it was, you would think I was crazy to do what I did, for as long as I did. Most days I loved it, some days I didn’t. That’s life dear hearts.

I didn’t know it then, my last day working in football was NLI signing day February 3, 2010. I would work even harder to gain a similar position at USC. After years of making connections, and acceptance into the Marshall School of Business to pursue my MBA, I was told during my interview I was overqualified.

That’s what happens when you chase other dreams, like joining a tech startup that IPO’d. Another story for anther day… image

Realize all you have is yourself. Know your worth and be willing prove it. Go. Hard.

Cheers,

x|o FFF

C’EST LA VIE

 

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What we witnessed Sunday dear hearts, when Mr Rodgers walked into Dallas’ neighborhood with his fire-arm. Dusting off the Cowboys, and their non-defense, like the snow he shovels out of his driveway.

This weekend of NFL divisional playoffs demonstrated the key to win is, have a solid QB. Big Ben, Matty Ice, Tommy Boy, and definitely not that big Houston bust, Brocky Boy.

Let’s give Dak credit, for performing so terribly in the first half, his stats nearly mirrored A-Rodg’s. Try to stay calm that HC Garrett doesn’t want to officially name who his starter will be next season. If he did, what fun would that be? We would have less to question and / or talk about. Perspective darlings, always keep it in mind.

I noticed the ‘boys MLB Sean Lee can’t play all corners of the field and continue to drop back. He definitely gave it a good shot. Jerry needs to learn from another owner how to make your GM get you two corners. Hint, tear off two corners of a napkin and pass along. Brilliant

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The new femme verbiage for Leveon Bell, the Steelers running beast, or RB. Good description of why he needs to touch the ball when the other Steelers threat, Antonio Brown isn’t posting a live feed in the team’s postgame huddle.

Speaking of the real NFL reality star Travis Kelce, his Irish temper flared up. Can you blame him? If one call made the decision of an outcome for all playoff games this weekend, the holding penalty against the Chiefs OT for the 2-point conversation was it.

Oh, and the Pattie pat pats won. (Eye roll) Some habits die hard. So dear football gods, this is my request for a Packers / Steelers SB.

Blame it on the Rams for leading the charge. Here comes a another team to my dear city. url

I have zero respect for a team who blew smoke in the eyes of their beloved fans, taking a page out of the former Baltimore Colts, (pulling off an unexpected overnight relocate in ’84 from Baltimore to Indy) how to relocate and make your fan base loathe you, overnight.

Since we believe in discussing unfair advantages here, lets flip to the business side. This move was genius.
Depending what personal beliefs you subscribe to, capitalism may be a pretty or ugly word. This move was all about the capital. The starter 30K seat stadium, along with gate receipts, (concessions, merchandise, tickets and that suite life) will be incredible numbers for not only the team, also The League.

Remember dear hearts, NFL teams split their revenue, which is the key in all of this craziness, equating to a solid strategic move for The League hitting that $25 BILLION revenue target Goodie Bear wants to achieve by 2027.

In short, we saw a Billionaire playboy who was married for 54 years, leave his long-term old thing, for the smoking hot new thing, and eventually making his bank account grow.

I have a little feeling, the Chargers will find a way to be the next Hard Knocks team.

 

Cheers,

x|o FFF

THE CHAMPAGNE CAMPAIGN

Looking like a damn football team / All in the same thing 
All repping one thing / Looking for Revenge -Drake 

Last post wasn’t about my New Year’s resolutions, instead how the Rose Bowl made me elicit every emotion possible. I was a little off about Clemson, and the only NFL wildcard game worth it’s time. 

How was that for you? I’m talking about last night… img_4908

Dear neighbors, this season is almost over and maybe my screaming will subside. I can’t promise anything.

Let me take you through, as we witnessed Saban get Dabo’d, in the 2017 National Championship. Sorry Rose Bowl, this may have been as good as you were. 

It started a little dull, after several three and outs, a defensive battle on both sides, Hurts was living up to his name for the Clemson D. I thought here we go again… Boring Bama, minus their defense. One word describes Bama’s D… Explosive 

This game felt like it was lasting way too long, and then… img_4365

~8:32 PM PST “Hell yes we have a game!” Oops… sometimes I can’t control myself. 

Deshaun Watson said he said he went HAM. We cannot disagree dear hearts, his stats prove it (36-of-56, 420 YDS, 3 TD; 1 RUSH TD). Clemson WR Mike Williams was in beast mode all game. Suddenly the Clemson offense opened up, with the D hitting bama hard. They kept it moving… all the way into the end zone, on a last-second play ! This is football! 

The Bama Bangs bowed their heads like it was Sunday. Let those tears roll. Congrats to Clemson – you did it! Rawr

Did you see that Bama cheerleader coach on the sideline? I’m a coach! I’m a coach! We get it. Quit waving your arms. Put them down. Cross them across your chest with a scowl on your face. Much better. 

I won’t discuss the ball-gate that occurred before this game. Remember what your mommas told you boys? Keep your hands to yourself.

Moving on to that pro life, some Giants were channeling their Lonely Island / T-Pain I‘m on a boat! in Miami, while Hoodie Billy B was keeping it real in Nantucket.

The Process associated with winning may not be sexy, but if you want to win, get comfortable with the uncomfortable. That means resisting the urge to Insta or tweet every little thing you do. It’s my gospel that the sin is in sharing, even when it’s too good not to. Keep the mystery alive.

Learn the habit of self-control.

Oh… I’m talking about a pro wide receiver. Never mind, you’re the only one exempt from my preaching. We need drama from you. We’re counting on NFL WR’s everywhere to continue end zone celebrations, wear those flashy cleats, pose on boats like it’s your rap album cover, and give yourselves outrageous names. I encourage all to channel their inner Ricky from Baller’s, so balance can remain in the NFL, and allow us to roll our eyes a little while giggling. 

After the Giants loss to the Packers, which shocking to no one, a Lambeau wall was the latest victim of The OBJ. Dear Goody Bear (Roger Goodell) let me purr in your ear this… Could you give one of those tents on the National Championship sideline to The OBJ? Us other NY football fans would thank you for it. 

A few key match ups this weekend toward the SB. screen-shot-2017-01-10-at-2-06-26-pm

I’m going to slap my little head if I have to hear about the Cowboys chances of winning the Super Bowl again. It’s called a fantasy. I experience them often.

Let’s keep calm until we see the Cowboys play the Packers this weekend. A-Rog showed us his gun on Sunday. Chances are likely it will be a high-scoring affair. Doesn’t it feel like the 90’s again?

2e21db36d00d8ea94f00dabf1f3767cdOne of these teams will be giving the other the bird, (I couldn’t help it) the Falcons / Seahawks on Sunday. Don’t overlook the Atlanta Falcons. They have been the dark bird of the NFL this season, not exactly the dirty bird they used to be, but have been playing fierce.

Seattle’s defense has been playing with a take-no-prisoners mentality, and say hello to their Bobby Wagner. Their ground game has taken a beating since Marshawn Lynch retired last season, leaving Wilson & Co to air out the offense. They have been using their TE Jimmy Graham a lot, which I like. He’s my favorite position. 

The S’hawks previous trips to the playoffs will be an asset. So will the ATL home crowd(ed) in the Georgia Dome for the other birds. Should be fun.  

Plan on the Pattie Pats, and the Chiefs to advance.

Cheers,

x|o FFF

Coming Up Roses

Last post I gave a sincere thank you to the football gods for the Orange bowl, and my predictions after staring into dark center of the Playoff trophy,  for the Peach and Fiesta games. 

What was my sensible way of coping with the New Year? Taking in what was the best football game my little eyes have ever watched. Cheers to you 2017! 

90991f45bb6c38c73328b3f750ddaa65USC showed the Rose Bowl and all those watching, they could pLAy, and would not allow those frisky kitties from across the nation, to win in their town. 

Juju was on his beat, and the defense held down by DT Stevie Tu’ikolovatu. Pssst, want a fun drinking game to play next halftime dear heart? Attempt to pronounce a Polynesian lineman’s last name. Try it. Your tongue may hurt after. 

Adoree’ Jackson was working every angle of the field, before breaking a few hearts revealing an injury. He definitely made the nation question who’s a more versatile player, him or that DB from Michigan.

Penn State also looked like they were returning to their roots as a classy college football program, especially wearing their black cleats.

For four hours, I felt every emotion pass through my body. Surprise, excitement, disappointment, screams followed by explicit language, worry and extreme happiness.

Which also perfectly describes my affair with football.

USC’s QB Sam Darnold, is a leader. I may have to post a #mcm on this true freshman. Yes, let me repeat he’s a TF. He had over 400 total yards with a ~62% completion percentage. Oh yes, take that in. He has the composure of a senior, who’s had the same offense around him for three seasons. Keep in mind, he’s only started for 3/4 of this season. Incredible. My body is tingling with excitement for next season. Is it September yet?

Oklahoma won the Sugar Bowl. I chose not to watch, due to the actions of a certain running back, who will not be named here. Personally, I feel Coach Stoops needs to fired, for allowing a player guilty of an inexcusable incident, only receive a slap on the wrist. images

The Tigers of LSU dominated Louisville, no Fournetting involved, with their D shutting down the well-deserved Heisman trophy winner, Lamar Jackson. Coach O looks right at home, and is convincing me, I need to plan a football weekend in Louisiana later this year. Don’t those unis just make your heart melt? They certainly make mine.

Clemson, oh my was I way off. I was really, off. I’m guilty of a little satisfaction every time tOSU finds a way to lose. I can’t help it, another team that doesn’t make my heart flutter. The Buckeyes looked buck… well, they were playing as if they were shirtless and shoeless. Blown play calls – check. A soft o-line that made QB JT Barrett look like he played for a Division two team, check. No defense – check. Leaving Coach Meyer to say, Ohio State isn’t used to this. Personally, I could get used to this.

Has the bar has been set to have a bowl game with a scoreless opponent? Remember a year ago? tOSU’s BIG10 counterpart Iowa was Beathard. I can’t help but giggle every time…

The Tide keeps rolling along, meaning Satan Saban won again. He was thrilled with the outcome… sabanThe 2016 National Championship game will be repeated next Monday. A Southern party at it’s finest. I’m counting on you Dabo, make this dynasty stop.

I’ll admit, it’s a little pleasure to see the well-known College Football programs, or if you prefer to use the words storied, distinguished, or greatest, back at the top.

Dear heart, I like an underdog. I’ve been an underdog all of my life. So was my alma mater when we beat Alabama in our undefeated season, I also happened to be a member of. I also enjoy being entertained, and the big programs when they are good, can entertain us well into the night.

The NFL regular season said goodbye on Sunday. As a fan of the team I’m a fan of the Jets, I’m glad to see it finally end. As a football addict, I was already setting the times in my phone for my upcoming wild weekend.

Let’s call it what it is, the Raiders Texans game won’t be a pleasure for anyone involved. After watching the Raiders Broncos, it’s obvious Carr had the juice and the carbon. I couldn’t watch past halftime.

Seattle will likely win, their D-line is winning them games lately, and with Miami’s starting QB Tannehill out, the Steelers will give them the Pitts.

The only game worth yours and my time watching, the Giants and Packers on Sunday. I’ve already told my friend, our brunch ends at 1 PM PST. I have an important thing I need to do after (hush now, no need to reveal our secret).

Cheers,image

x|o FFF